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Posted on: Tuesday 03/21/2017 12:33:08

My apologies for being a bit scarce lately. There hasn't been a lot going on, really. I suppose the big thing has to do with my brother. Remember I posted that last weekend he went to the hospital to get a new kidney, but the deal fell through? Well, as per the usual, I talked to my mom on Saturday and found out he was back in the hospital on Wednesday for stroke symptoms again. It wasn't that so he wasn't admitted. 

From what I was told, it sounds a lot like it was due to him playing, "I'm my own best doctor" with his meds again, particularly this one that is a heart med. True to his typical style, he was taken off of it about a year ago. Since he had not been taking it when he was supposed to, he had a bunch left. He is now taking them without doctor instructions because he swears they are the only thing that makes him sleep when he has insomnia. That is totally not what they are for. He is pissed that the doctors won't prescribe him more now.

When I talked to him on Sunday I didn't get the usual, "I didn't call because I didn't want to worry you". He told me he had those symptoms for each of the five days before Wednesday. That includes while he was in the hospital for the transplant prep. He didn't tell anyone but me that just then. He didn't speak up until it was frightening him enough that he called my sister to take him to the hospital.  Everything else he told me was contradictory to what I had heard from my mom. Then I got his usual, "Those doctors don't know shit. When they say they practice medicine, that's exactly right. They practice on me." I have to now get the scoop from my sister, who knows him best at this point.

Otherwise, I didn't go to work today, as the depression had a strong hold on me. At my daughter's prodding, I did go to the grocery store tonight, and bought about 2/3 healthy stuff. I'm going to make the effort but, blah and yuck. I continue to have bizarre dreams nightly. My therapist says the meaning is not in what happens in them or who is in them. The meaning is in how and what the events make you feel. Then you have to figure out what in real life is making you have that feeling. This does not make it any easier. 

I will get to see my son this weekend, as he is coming home for a wedding. I asked him if it was his wedding, and he didn't think that was funny. Finally, I have been talking to another nice, interesting lady on POF for about a week now. She seems really interested in me. Tomorrow I will ask her about meeting for coffee or something like that this weekend. If it goes the way these things have so far, we will meet, it will be what I think is nice, then she will disappear. I know, think positive.

  • lunamor Says:
    I'm so sorry to hear about your brother, and that your depression is getting to you :( /homepage

  • lermontov Says:
    I'm pretty sure the new bird wants to bang you!

  • blackbird Says:
    Sorry about your bro, KB. :(

    Hang in there.

    /homepage

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    Isn't there a possibility of him being removed from the transplant waiting list if he is self-medicating? They often don't let self-destructive people have new organs. Aside from Mickey Mantle of course, but come on, it's Mickey Freaking Mantle./homepage

  • lermontov Says:
    ^ And George Best

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    I don't think George Best ever even bothered with a liver transplant. I think he wanted to die with original equipment.

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    Shit I stand corrected. He did have a liver transplant. And continued drinking.

  • knifeboy Says:
    Steve, he has been smoking for years, and thinks they don't know. He refuses to believe that the nicotine shows up in his blood tests. That's partially why I was so surprised they were attempting to get a new sponge in him. Yeah, I think the self-medicating falls into the same category, and they do know now./homepage
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