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It Stopped Being Fun

Posted on: Wednesday 03/29/2017 12:57:57

I feel constantly drained lately. Mono? Iron or vitamin D deficiency? Kidney or liver issue? It's highly unlikely any of these. It is probably my boss and his stifling, over-micromanaging style, and extremely overbearing personality sucking the very life force out of me. Every fifteen minutes it seems something happens involving him that leaves me confused as to whether I should go into a crying jag, or throw a maniacal laughing fit. 

I do not want to be come like many others who have given up on trying to do a good job and do right. They have had enough negative exposure with him that their new work attitude is, "Fuck it, I don't care. Whatever he wants. Let him decide, since whatever I might decide will be wrong. Good or bad decision in reality, it's on him, not me." 

I've come too far in 36 years to go out carrying that kind of work ethic around with me. I can't do it. I can't collect a pay check and not care. 

Can't wait to see my therapist next week. 

  • lermontov Says:
    You're a good man Don - don't beat yourself up about things. Every 15 minutes you should just feel zen. Because the guy is a Clown. He's the sort of guy that'd use teeth when he is sucking off other guys at the local Glory Hole. Not worthy of your time. Certainly not worthy of your emotions. Did you bang that bird on whatever dating site you frequent? /homepage

  • Simon Says:
    Don, it seems that developing such an attitude is exactly what you should be doing.

    You’re in a frustrating and annoying situation over which you have practically no control. This bloke is getting on your tits and causing you all sorts of emotional grief. But as long as he’s your superior you’re stuck with this, so your best bet is to tune him out as much as you can. Say ‘Sod it. It doesn’t matter.’ Because it doesn’t, in the end. Try to separate out your work life and your home life. When you get back home try to do stuff that allows you to forget about problems at work. Try to relax. Whatever suits you best – reading, writing, watching films, playing video games, day-dreaming, making a wax doll of your boss and sticking pins in it – whatever allows you to unwind, and to isolate yourself from work-related problems, rather than dwelling on them. /homepage

  • lunamor Says:
    What Simon said...when my job was so shitty it was making me hope for spontaneous combustion, all I could do was try to leave it there, and enjoy my time NOT there.

    How close are you to retiring?

  • Bulldog Says:
    Dude I know exactly how you feel as I am in the same boat. That is what is so frustrating for me now. I used to be enthusiastic about my job and loved coming to work. Now my micromanaging boss (who is often wrong) has caused me to use up all my fucks. I have no more to give and I don't like that feeling. Yes I could just chill and let her make all the decisions, even when I know they are wrong. But, that has made me unhappy at work. On my review she said that in recent months I have appeared to accept the new world order at work and had an improved attitude. That is because I stopped caring as Simon has suggested and I hate feeling that way about my job. I can't do that. That is why I hate my job right now. /homepage

  • LizLemon Says:
    Does your therapist ever tell you something to the effect of "focus on yourself because you can't change anyone else"?

    When my old job got insanely bad, that thought helped me not lose my shit.

  • knifeboy Says:
    Luna, I have eight years at least. I so wish I could do it now like others have. I thank the ex for my inability to do that. Bulldog, we are in the same fix. I truly do sympathize. Liz, no she hasn't, but I can't wait to talk to her about this on Tuesday. It bothers me that in the space of six months I have gone from being fearful for my career, to talking back to this guy on occasion, and wanting to slap him every fifteen minutes. Everyone else, you make good points. I know that in the end I should make it about me and my physical and mental health and well being, not allowing him to be a cancerous blister on my tongue. And Lerm, we have an actual date on Friday night. Yes, the world just may wobble on its axis a bit./homepage

  • lermontov Says:
    Remember - if you're stuck for something to say - just flop it out and say 'what do you think about this?'

  • LizLemon Says:
    Do not "just flop it out"!!!!

  • knifeboy Says:
    Lerm & Liz, you are both funny. Thanks.

  • fakebrunette Says:
    Hope your therapy does help
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