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The Real Confession Time

Posted on: Sunday 02/18/2018 02:50:01

I'm sorry for the suspense. Whenever I write a post on a computer at work, only the post title publishes. It won't let me insert the copied text through the edit either. A glitch, I guess. Anyway:

The correspondence person I spoke about in my last post happens
to be a lady in England. We have gone from emails about poetry, the
writing process, the arts, personal experiences, and a number of other things,
to the addition of intimate emails, videos, and texts through a phone chat app. This isn't
about internet sex. We do however know a lot of personal details about
each other, and of our lives, past and present.


If
this is possible, we have over time developed strong feelings for each other,
that are growing rapidly. She is not a scammer. I contacted her first regarding
writing. She is a friend of a long-term friend on FB. In fact, a couple of
times, I have offered to help her monetarily, and she flat refused. There
has been serious talk of me flying there to meet her and stay for a week or so
when she is on her summer holiday, as they call it. I swear, if that goes as well as we both think it will, I will retire as soon as possible, sell my house and all my shit (it's just possession, right?), and move there to be with her. To me, my whole life has had so much suckiness and unhappiness in it, that if this will make me very happy for the rest of my life thenl, I am damned well going to do it.



I think she is perfect for me. She is very talented. Except the
theater, she is involved in every type of arts, and is very good and
successful at them. She is very intelligent, especially when it comes to
philosophy, psychology, cultures, ancient literature, music for starters. She
is big-hearted, gentle, strong, and kind. God, I have always been very
attracted to strong women. Guys, she has this soft, quiet voice with the
British accent that just melts you. She is a school teacher for special needs
middle school children, and head of special programs development
and administration. She cares for her 18-year-old daughter,
whom has major special needs. She is also gorgeous and sexy. She is in my eyes, the whole package, what I have searched for. 



I
won’t get into the stupid thing I did to upset her, but I think she knee-jerked
and over-reacted. Since then the frequency of emails and messages
have dropped off gradually. The overall tone has changed as well. Example:
Yesterday afternoon, I sent her the usual Happy Friday message, and asked
what plans she had for the weekend. Normally she would wish me one
back, tell me her plans, and ask me what I had going. She would tell me she
hoped to hear a lot from me over the weekend. She would end the message with a
"XOXOXOXO", or a "XXXXXX". Her reply yesterday was
only that the was starting a ten-day vacation, and nothing else. I would
normally have gotten the usual "good morning" message
today. I've not gotten a word. It is 8:17 a.m. here, and 1:18 p.m. there. I
sent her flowers on Valentine's Day. The shipping cost was staggering, but I
didn't care. I think she is very worth it, and I really wanted to do
it. She said they were beautiful and she wasn't used to it. That was all.



I
am wondering if this situation is permanent, or will wear down in time, and how
long it will take for the smoke to clear. Maybe I blew it, what could be the
best thing to ever happen to me. Obviously, those things are unanswerable right
now, and it is frustrating.



  • lermontov Says:
    Couldn't read it all - you got too emotional too soon in your writing this post and too emotional with a woman you haven't met. I imagine that you're freaking her the fuck out!

    People are normally attracted to independence - you should try more of it.

    Calm down - bang a few hookers if you have to and re-engage in a sane fashion

  • fakebrunette Says:
    She sounds like she has allot on her plate with caring for her daughter so maybe she needs a little space

  • lunamor Says:
    If it's any help, I fear FB might be right. It's kind of why I broke it off with Jay - I mean, there were other issues, but my biggest one was that I had way too much on my plate. At any rate, I'm sorry and I hope things work out anyway. /homepage

  • kittenheel Says:
    Except for the banging hookers part, I agree with Lerm.

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    Are you against banging hookers because of the objectification/subjugation of women? Or because you think he could/should do better?

    KB, I have no advice but I will say, having stuck my foot in my mouth a couple of times, what may sound like no big deal to one might be a HUGE deal to another, especially if the comment was via chat where you can’t see facial expressions to glean sarcasm or humor from the comment. I’d be careful how hard you push.

  • lunamor Says:
    Hell, Steve still sticks in his foot in his mouth with me sometimes, and you'd think he's known me long enough to know better!


  • kittenheel Says:
    I'm just saying that where Lerm lives, sex work is legal and regulated, whereas in most parts of the US, you could be dealing with lot lizards and it's risky. In general, I have absolutely nothing against the single person seeking a sex partner who's essentially a "scratching post" to address immediate needs as long as both parties are in agreement. In fact, it can be good for the ego. So I've heard.

  • lunamor Says:
    I didn't know hookin' was legal there!

    Huh.

  • kittenheel Says:
    Yep. I found that out when I read Seven Types of Ambiguity by Elliot Perlman.

  • H3OsMama Says:
    News to me, too.

  • lermontov Says:
    Multiple brothels within 200m of my place

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    What does that do to property values?

  • kittenheel Says:
    Let's play "Guess Whose Neighborhood has an HOA."

  • lermontov Says:
    A 2 bedroom flat goes for about 1.5 million AUD. Houses anywhere from 3-40 million.

    This is my dream house on my street

    https://www.realestate.com.au/property-house-nsw-elizabeth+bay-127654934

    It is one of the most expensive suburbs in one of the most expensive cities in the world, regardless of the brothels!

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    You could have just said “it increases property values.”

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    1.5 million AUD, that’s what, about $200k ‘Murican? $250?

  • lunamor Says:
    o_O

    Don't we wish.

  • lunamor Says:
    Um, Lerm, if you buy that house, can I have a room? I promise not to bring my kids.

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    He might make you do “stuff”* to “earn your keep.”



    *Probably cleaning and ironing.

  • lunamor Says:
    Cleaning I could do, to live there. Ironing? I don't think there is a nice enough house to entice me to do that.

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    I don’t mind ironing. I’d iron dogshit if the offer of sex was on the table.

    Oddly that offer has never been extended.

  • lunamor Says:
    I think if I saw a guy ironing dogshit, there'd be no sex ever with said guy.

  • kittenheel Says:
    I like ironing, except in the hottest part of the summer. It is one of a very few chores that is clean, warm, and quiet, and you can see a real difference when you're done. I wouldn't iron dogshit unless I was guaranteed at least six figures (BEFORE the decimal place, I might add) in cash.

  • lunamor Says:
    I don't know why I hate it so much. I love doing laundry.

  • kittenheel Says:
    Part of it for me is that it was one of a very few things I did for my ex-husband that I did "right." Most things I did he thought I was an incompetent idiot, but by God he wore perfectly pressed shirts to the office every day. He had to hire someone to do it after we divorced, lol.

  • lunamor Says:
    I iron maybe once or twice a year. I think I hate that it's a whole process: Lug out the ironing board. Put water in the iron. Wait for it to heat up. Try not to scorch anything (including myself). Make sure hot iron doesn't touch anything else as it cools. Put everything away. I mean, my god, who has time for that when there are cat videos to watch?!

  • kittenheel Says:
    I was just thinking that KB is probably very grateful that we've taken this thread from romantic advice to property values in Australia to the advisability of ironing dogshit. We're nothing if not helpful!

  • lunamor Says:
    ^ That did occur to me. "What were we talking about again? Well, no matter, we've gone on to the really important things he needs to know."

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    I like ironing for the same reasons Mary likes it. I don’t do it as much since I started working from home, the last time I ironed anything was for a funeral I attended last fall. It might surprise you all to know I probably wear my “Goonies Never Say Die” t shirt more often than socially acceptable.

  • fakebrunette Says:
    House down the road from me is on for 8 million.

  • lunamor Says:
    Steve, you have a husband who appreciates your ironing prowess? I had no idea!

  • lermontov Says:
    Jess, barring consecutive lotto victories, the chances of me buying that house, are so close to zero, that they may as well be zero - sadly!
    Mary, you'd be surprised to know, that I don't do my own ironing.
    Steve, I'm off to Melb today - but, I'll take a photo of a brothel on the weekend

  • lunamor Says:
    So you're saying there's a chance.

    EXCELLENT.

  • Fritz The Bootlegger Says:
    Are Victorian whores better than or worse than New South Welsh whores?

  • lermontov Says:
    Ha - I wish!

    Mate, I've never tried - but, I'm sure that there will come a time
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